On the lighter side of things..

On an ordinary day, in an ordinary place, the unexpected happens.

It was a usual friday night out with friends who were in the mood to sing their hearts out and just to enjoy. The goal was accomplished and we were having a grand time.

Just when I thought the night was over, our friend said she was on her way -to be dropped by probably the only guy that can come close to a celebrity icon that I totally dig.

With that, we were literally sprinting towards the entrance so we can see him. We were standing there for what seemed like an eternity. I was pacing, I was getting my speech ready- we were practically practicing how we were gonna go about meeting and talking to him.

The plan was set, the lines were practiced perfectly - but of to no avail.

A sleek red car came with its windows down, giving us a clearer view of the driver himself. With every inch that his car came closer to us, I was frantically panicking. But as nerve-wracking as the sitch can be, I managed to pull myself together and act cool. By cool, I mean, the plan was forgotten, the lines were a blur and all I could do was stand there, in awe, smiling like crazy and waved hi. WOW! What a way to impress. Hehe

Nevertheless, it was a nice feeling. I got to feel all giddy, excited and deliriously in cloud nine again. I was thrown back to the good 'ol college days when we used to sigh over guys like him. After such a long time, the emotions were refreshing and despite how silly I acted and how petty it seemed, it reminded me how it felt - the butterfly-in-the-stomach effect and the lightheaded feeling it gives us.

If I could just have moments where we could hang out together, then perhaps he may be more than just "the guy in my fantasies" (note the exaggeration). ;)

Pretense..

Pretending to be something you're not is unacceptable by the norms of our society. The mere act of pretension is rejected by the people. It has always belonged to the "evil doings" list - if ever such a list existed. Is it really? Bad?

When they said that life gets tougher, did they ever mention the intensity? When they said, you will get out of any undertaking; did they ever explain the answer to the question "how"? And when they said that you'll once again see the light, did they ever give you the exact length of time? The specifics are unknown. But in due time you will. cliche. But it is the truth. But while you stay in the midst of it all, what do you do? You then learn the subtle act of pretense.

You learn to smile despite the pain.
You learn to laugh despite the ache.
And you learn to go about your life despite the empty void engulfing you.
They may not be genuine, they may not be real but the point is you are trying to pick up the pieces. Each day, little by little, you learn to accept the reality of the past and face the uncertainty of the future.

So I ask the question again: is pretending bad?
When it's the only thing you can do to avoid being the object of ridicule?

I guess it's not. As long you don't hurt anybody in the process.

For so many days or maybe even months now, we've all led a life of pretense, one way or another. It's not intentional, we don't even like it. But somehow, it's the only way to survive.

Now if we could just learn to perfect the art of letting go...

a view from the top...

on a trip to the other part of Ocean park via the cable car - i swear i'm never riding one again! ever!













HongKong beneath all the fogs and mists...