Programming and the works...

They call me crazy. They call me weird.
All because I miss programming and the pressure associated with it.

It's true. I've missed those sleepless nights where all you do is stare at some mumbo jumbo they refer to as programming codes. The way you stretch your mind's capability to think beyond your limits.

As I transport myself sometime back to our college memories, I remember all too well how our days and nights went as our deadline for our project was fast approaching.

We started out with energies so high, you'd think it was endless. As the night wore on, the pressure grew stronger pushing us to the edges of our seats (literally, towards the monitor in hopes of being able to tell whats causing it not to work). A tournament to determine which one can make the perfect cup of coffee (this, being so not our forte) was initiated. Different stories have already been said and different forms of entertainment have been created to lighten the mood. We took turns in carefully dissecting each line and tears have already been shed- of to no avail. The problem remained unsolved as the sun's first rays dawned on us. Our luck for that day came in the form of a friend who was able to figure out what was wrong. The culprit was just one line, just one line that didn't make the whole thing work. Now isnt that just fine and dandy?

There's a different sense of fulfillment as you see your program work. there's a sense of pride as you watch all those characters come to life (this is exaggeration to the maximum level).

Sure i miss them and all yet i'm not currently doing anything that may even be related to it. and they keep on asking me why.

For starters, I'm not really that equipped with programming skills. I know the basics, I know the concept of 1 or 2 programming languages and I may even be able to write a few simple codes but thats about it. As interested as I am, I wasn't exposed to the programming world and i take full responsibility of that. I have the interest, I just don't have enough will power to do something about it. I'm hoping to change that.

With a renewed interest and with a little push from people who believes I can do it, I open my books and tutorials online.

I don't know how long I will last. I dont know if I will make it through. But this "renewed interest" should last more than just a few pages, this should be enough for me to learn. This should be enough to stop me from dreaming to be a programmer, but to finally become one.